acne
For years acne has plagued my life. It started when I was about 15 and now at 20 I still have not been able to rid myself of the horrible teenage acne. I know that it is tough on girls, but at least they can wear makeup to cover some of the blemishes that are on their skin. Mine however, is just left out there for the world to see. It is really hard for me to meet girls, I think mostly because I am so self conscious about it. I think that my acne makes me look dirty. I look like a person who doesn't take care of himself, and yet I don't think that I could actually do anything else to my skin. I clean it several times daily and use several different acne medications, but nothing seems to help. I have tried online dating, but I find that even a bit more awkward because I never want to send them a clear picture of myself for fear of their reaction to my face. I am glad that I don't really have acne anywhere else on my body, but the acne on my face is keeping anyone from seeing the rest of my body anyway, so I guess it doesn't matter all that much. I just am not sure what to do. I know that my attitude and self esteem are significantly effected by the way I feel about the way my face looks. I just can't help it. I know that if I can't over come the way I look, then no one else will be able to see past it either.
Online, I found a new treatment for acne that I have not tried, which is truly amazing because I really thought that I had tried everything. I am placing an order for it this evening, but I am not getting my hopes up because I have been disappointed too many times in the past. I will just pray that it works and gets me out of this darn hell that I am living in. I want nothing more than to allow the man I truly am out into the world, but I feel that I just can't do that until I can look at myself in the mirror without cringing. I really hope that will come soon.